The mysterious being that dwells within

August 11, 2015

Whenever I receive recognition for an accomplishment, I make a point of mentioning that the true credit goes to the mysterious being that dwells within me. What do I mean by “mysterious being?” Who do you become when you enter into dreamless sleep each night? What keeps your heart beating? What is that which causes you to consciously draw a breath, but cannot be drawn in by your breath?


I do not use the term “God” in this context because the word has been bastardized, thanks to organized religion.


If you think you can think your way to understanding this mysterious being, think again. It cannot be truly understood directly, only peripherally. It’s like trying to see a faint star in the night sky. When you look directly at it, it vanishes. However, if you use your peripheral vision and look to one side of that dim star, it becomes visible.


I have found that viewing the mysterious being peripherally enables me to see more of it, as if I’m seeing it out of the corner of my subconscious awareness.


This does not in any way imply that I completely understand the mysterious being. To make that claim would not only be arrogant, it would be delusional.


I knew someone who claimed to know the will of God. He belonged to a church that believed their interpretation of the scriptures was the only “right” one. With an authoritarian tone, he would tell people what God wanted them to do.


This type of grandiose thinking creates a feeling of separation from the nonbelievers. It is no surprise that people who make a habit of separating themselves from others end up feeling lonely and depressed.


The religious man suffered from periodic bouts of deep depression followed by moments of elation when he would convince himself that he knew the will of God. Back and forth he would go. It ruined two of his marriages and put a strain on his relationship with his children. Eventually, he sought professional help and was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.


At the time I counseled him, he was refusing to take his medication and was clearly manic. He would hop up out of his chair to show me biblical quotes. Then he would start in with self-righteous statements, such as, “Did you know that you will not inherit the kingdom of God unless you believe this? Do you know that people with tattoos are going to hell? Did you know that it is a sin against God to have long hair?”


When I pointed out that Jesus had long hair, he refused to believe it. He refused to believe anything that contradicted his dogmatic beliefs. He simply dismissed any contrary evidence as being a deception from the devil. He seemed to particularly reject any scientific data.


With the painful memories of two failed marriages and disengagement from his children, this man isolated himself even further by only interacting with like-minded members of his church. He stopped seeing me altogether and I don’t know what happened to him.  


Today’s Loving Suggestion: Close your eyes and sit in silence for 15 minutes. Do not try to hang on to any thought. Just let your thoughts come and go. Visualize each thought slowly tumbling down like dried leaves falling off a tree in autumn and settling on the ground.


Reach out with your senses and feel the presence of the mysterious being within you—life energy. Feel your heart beating in your chest and recognize that energy as pure love. Now feel the interconnectedness you share with every being on the planet that also has life energy.


Acknowledge the connection. Feel what that is like. Then open your eyes and live your life with the understanding that you are one with all living things. The mysterious being within you connects with the mysterious being in all others. Life energy is life energy in any form.

If you have followed any of the suggestions in the Sir Rennity feature, I would love to hear your stories. Please email me at zenithcityweekly@yahoo.com. I will keep your letters private unless you request that they be published.

The Sir Rennity feature is intended to provide gentle guidance for your life. These articles hold no intrinsic meaning. You give meaning to them based on the value you place on them, so the words here are meaningless unless you put them into practice.

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